[ lyrics CW: self-harm and stuff ]

I've been obsessed with this song ever since I found it a few weeks ago. it's just, aagggh, the lyrics resonated with me really strongly, and the song's helped me with channeling my emotions that I can't seem to be able to keep in check

https://sonhostomamconta.bandcamp.com/album/wierd

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I spilled some water over my medicine
And watched them dissolve as they fell in
Melting within my veins
Through all the crying held by my loneliness

It's been a year I've tried to stop to cut myself
But when the day shines off, my thighs glow in red
Trying to stop the blood to shed
And the walls crave marks of my pitiful head
I couldn't stop myself from trying to feel something

It's an endless cycle of shame and pain
Desperate to feel the humanity in vain
Holding up to what would never comе true
I feel so scared of going through
The lifе and death funeral of my voice
That trembles in the silent of the void
That grows inside of me
Bigger than everything that I could be

When everything fades away
I'll stare at the emptiness that I've created
And see how beautiful is the nothingness fading out all the pain
And could keep out of the floor what isn't alive anymore

I was born from the sun and the hatred that burnt my flesh
And fulfilled the void that I gaze, leaving my skin with only regrets
That made me realize I am the battle that rushes inside of me
I'm the blood and I'm the death, and how I wish that I was dead
How I wish I was torn apart from every fear that built me

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